I didn't understand at first, but he went on to tell me that he saw something that had reminded him of a bad memory of his. Being reminded of his bad experience caused him to become upset again. A feeling I know all too well.
I felt bad for Jamar because I experience the same problem from time to time and it's probably one of the most unenjoyable things to experience, at least for me. Most people can relate to these "flashbacks" but I can still remember just last year when I never had a painful memory. It sucks to say I do now, but everyone does eventually.
Ever since I read my boyfriends blog on a medicine that can erase certain memories that you did not want anymore, I think of what I would do if I were given a chance to take that same medicine. Sometimes I decide against it, but other times I feel like I would take it in a heartbeat. During the times I ask myself whether I would take this medicine, I remember some things my boyfriend said in his own blog. He basically pointed out the fact that our memories make us stronger. We learn from them, therefor we know how to handle situations because we remember our experiences, both good and bad. This is true, and I never really thought about it that way before. It's the one thing that always made me decide against the medicine during my thoughts on whether or not I would take it.
Even though my boyfriend pointed that out, I still never could decide what I would do if given the medicine. There's this one memory or two that just makes me cringe any time I think about it, and I sometimes feel as though I would do anything to just not remember it anymore. Sometimes I feel like if I forgot this certain something not only would I myself feel better, but I would treat those important to me a lot better, too.
Taking the medicine or not taking it both has it's pros and cons, but I doubt I will ever know what I would do in that situation. It's a question that comes to mind whenever I remember one of those bad memories. Maybe one I'll never answer.
Most of us can relate to having these bad memories that we can't seem to forget about. So here is my question: To take the memory erasing medicine or to NOT take the memory erasing medicine?
What would you do?
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